Sunday, January 3, 2010

Go surround yourself with people who not only love, but who also trust you this new year.

I hope that all of our communities will continue to become warmer in 2010 and beyond.

-S

Saturday, January 2, 2010

It's so very...

difficult to neglect this button: [<--Bk Sp ], isn't it? It's just so tantalizing in its proximity to this button: [Enter <--]. None of that long distance F1, F2, F3 business.

I forgot the last time I used the word "dappled." I meant to convey something profoundly simple about myself simultaneous to the 245973246 facets I have. You should learn this about me before hopping on this tram: I am a crazy breed of spot.

If there's anything I should get down on this January 2nd, 2010...it's that I resolve to admit to my needing to transcend my ridiculous voraciousness towards fantasy.

It's like in those euphonious cinematographic zoom-outs, when suddenly a little square of innocuous robin's egg blue sky morphs into infinity and beyond. Except, at 18, you're not in "sweet, epiphany!" mode. You just grind your teeth and say...shit.

How much of yourself would you entrust to another person, and how lost would you be if suddenly, you stopped to realize that those around you were only escorts along your mission from lowercase a to lowercase b, and not from roman numeral I to roman numeral II?

I miss the days of using our own private self-serve bubbly life savers, but even I, meanwhile, am still learning to swim.

Seeking tangency. Drawing psychological and sociological tangents to yourself is like drawing men to yourself. The best ones (in my experience) don't come to you first. Some type of preliminary initiative is vital to tasting the real stuff. One way I hope to draw tangents this year is through this page--not directly, although I never had anything against stalkers (I'm a benign facebook stalker myself)--but through filtering my thoughts through a medium which creates the (hopefully true) illusion that someone out there is listening. PS. I'm especially good at listening, but I like talking so much more :)

The start of a new decade must call for some commotion, even though as usual, it feels too much the same.

I just know that I really want to do something for me this year. Something for me that I know I won't regret.

God bless.
-S